Thirty....YEAH RIGHT!!

O.K. So the 15th was my 30th birthday and I am ok with that.
But I must evaluate who I am and if I am happy with this life so far..
A wife for 13years..rough at times and rocky at others to say the least but I am truly happy and am a rare breed of happily married folks..not the statistic that so many said we would be..divorced and unhappy..not us..breaking curses of abuse to one anouther, hatred and war in a home that is supposed to be peaceful..I have seen it so many times in my very own family, but not in my home anymore..we have learned to talk it out, walk away, and say I am sorry. Put the other before ourself and serve..
A mom..there is nothing more difficult...and nothing so rewarding...she is so beautiful in everyway. from the inside out. Full of hope and joy and LOVE. But I often feel like I am forging this parenting on my own. Not able to rely on anything that I think I know especially in the beginning. Angry for no reason..seeing myself in her but only my so called flaws..there has been so much the Father has had to do in me but now I look at her with a love that is straight from heaven...
My son loves life and leaping...he is great and I can feel his struggle with his self and his spirit..it is daily..so close to my own that I know how to help him..most of the time..he is so gifted and loving I can barely wait to see what he does as he ages inspite of himself...
A giver am I...majoring in hospitality and love. To those deserving and undeserving. I want them all to know Jesus..forget my name and remember His...
There is something there behind those eyes...love joy compassion peace and
a contentment that only comes with time..and getting to know who I am even in weak moments
A serious one about the things I value..and those I love

Dramatic to prove a point...
I love to tell things in story form...almost parables..always aware that moments are just that moments that pass and are gone...but I have learned how to cherish them when they happen and look for the next ones..but almost with a prophetic knowing as I seem to have this been there done that feeling so often...
I don't believe the lies that try to infaltrate my mind reminding me of the past of an ugly girl with frizzy hair and thin frame..
I know who I am and I am 30 and happy. molded and shaped by a Holy Spirit that loves me and I can't wait to see what happens in the next few years..