it is not time

You are not supposed to go
not now, not today
why would you end it all
and throw your choices away?

what happened? when did you break?
and come so close to causing so much heartache?

Why are you sick
and will it get better
is it cancer or is it safe

Can they operate and take it away
does it matter to you or would you rather it stayed?

how do i communicate
fear is ever present
God is my source
and I need His strength
but what can be done about ones mental state?

Is He big enough and will it matter
if the choices are still left so scattered?

Free will that is one I don't quite understand
please Lord heal her soul and help her stand.

Don't let her quit and throw it all away
I need her still to this very day.